So why do I live...

Posted: Tuesday, March 27, 2007 by Stained in Labels:


Feeding off other people's wrath for me
Passing through the devils shadow

It runs in my veins
Oozes out through every word
Words of advice
Mastered the art of despise
Filling my world full of lies
Such mediocrity
Has been meant for me
An hideous person
A hidden facet
Should have known it long ago

I'm the evil one
So why do I live...


Liking this poem a lot... :D

Anyway today's my parents 30th wedding anniversary & I haven't yet wished them..... :)

Bookmark and Share

Me Today..............

Posted: Saturday, March 24, 2007 by Stained in

My life fucking sucks right now & the worst is still not here.....Brilliant!!!!!
And then people EXPECT me to Compromise. Compromise what??? I really have nothing here and I'm expected to let go what nothing I have....Fuck!!!!!
Yes I'm in a very bad mood, just hoping the movie '300' is up to my expectations. But again hope is a LIE....

Bookmark and Share

Signs and symptoms of Depression

Posted: Thursday, March 22, 2007 by Stained in Labels:

Signs and symptoms of Depression:

  • Loss of interest in normal daily activities. You lose interest in or pleasure from activities that you used to enjoy.

  • Depressed mood. You feel sad, helpless or hopeless, and may have crying spells.
  • Sleep disturbances. Sleeping too much or having problems sleeping can be a sign you're depressed. Waking in the middle of the night or early in the morning and not being able to get back to sleep are typical.

  • Impaired thinking or concentration. You may have trouble concentrating or making decisions and have problems with memory.

  • Changes in weight. An increased or reduced appetite and unexplained weight gain or loss may indicate depression.

  • Agitation. You may seem restless, agitated, irritable and easily annoyed.

  • Fatigue or slowing of body movements. You feel weariness and lack of energy nearly every day. You may feel as tired in the morning as you did when you went to bed the night before. You may feel like you're doing everything in slow motion, or you may speak in a slow, monotonous tone.

  • Low self-esteem. You feel worthless and have excessive guilt.

  • Thoughts of death. You have a persistent negative view of yourself, your situation and the future. You may have thoughts of death, dying or suicide
  • Well the above summarises what my life was during the first few months of my first year in college, i.e. Oct-Nov 2004. Reminiscence about what one did wrong is always good cause it either helps you not to do those mistakes again or it just breaks you from inside. Umm...Sorry again to everyone [if they ever read this] who I gave a hard time during those few months, my always is.....

    Bookmark and Share

    My Niece

    Posted: Wednesday, March 21, 2007 by Stained in Labels:

    She's six months old & is very naughty. My cute/adorable niece in some funky poses..... :D

    Bookmark and Share
    Posted: Monday, March 19, 2007 by Stained in

    A skill I'm not very proud of is my ability to make things up when needed to cover up a truth. I can spin a story out of no where that is completely believable. Done it so many times for my friends & sometimes I surprise myself with the stories I make with a perfect series of fake incidents that coincide with the requirements of a perfect cover-up, a fool-proof story.

    But it does not mean that I'm a very convincing liar when this 'made up' story comes out of my mouth. Its more effective when I'm the writer while someone else does the act of saying it.

    Bookmark and Share

    Dreams are a mirage

    Posted: Wednesday, March 14, 2007 by Stained in Labels:


    A Million dollar question
    A million answers
    A million wishes
    That have you at the edge
    You wonder what to say
    Tomorrow's dream
    Could be a reality today
    But dreams are a mirage
    Reality kicks you in the face
    You contemplate
    You take your time
    You wish you had someone along
    That misery takes your breath away
    You want this to end
    Forever to fulfill
    Would it be possible
    But dreams are a mirage
    Reality kicks you in the face
    The darkness begins to hurt
    The night comes to an end
    The stars disappear
    That's me on the ground
    You can see me now
    A spot on this earth
    With a million wishes
    And dreams are a mirage
    Reality kicks you in the face


    Bookmark and Share
    Posted: by Stained in

    I'm starting to like this song......Its called 'Blurry' by Puddle Of Mudd

    Click here for Lyrics...

    Bookmark and Share

    Desert Rock pics....

    Posted: Tuesday, March 13, 2007 by Stained in

    Due to the bad quality of the videos I have decided to just put up the pictures...

    [Note: the pictures sizes are quite big so it will take time to load for a Dial-up connection]

    Bookmark and Share

    Desert Rock 2007

    Posted: Saturday, March 10, 2007 by Stained in

    Desert Rock was Awesome........Prodigy was the best in my opinion. Me & FUD sang along, danced, jumped & had a lot of fun together. It was great.....though the mosh pit was kinda scary cause every time one started had to make sure FUD was out of the way & unhurt [Sorry FUD again if me being a bodyguard bugged you]. We got elbowed, hit on the head, pushed around but all was great even though now I feel like lying in bed & not moving a muscle. The energy of the performers & the crowd was exhilarating but the beer throwing by some jerks was not fun. Got splashed several times with beer but luckily it was costly so water was splashed more than beer [Got back home at 1am, put my clothes for wash & had a bath, ended up sleeping at 2:30am]. I'm not going for the second day today so I'll post some pictures of yesterday later & even a few videos.

    Bookmark and Share
    Posted: Wednesday, March 07, 2007 by Stained in Labels:


    May he know why it was him
    To Justify for the unknown
    His to make
    His to lose
    A chronicle untold
    Far from time
    A gamble of fate
    Or Maybe his own life
    What life you may see
    Cruel & free
    Dying it may seem
    Just another journey
    From past to present
    Future is now
    May his soul
    Rest in pieces
    Scattered all over
    Of what was once his
    All over the ground
    Under the sole
    Sole of people
    Who don't give a damn
    His to make
    His to lose
    Lost it all
    What he never had
    Now he lays
    Alone in his grave
    Forever he shall lay
    Till the end of time
    When all will be lost
    And nothing will matter anymore
    Then his time will come
    To shine again
    To shine into the nothingness
    And no one would give a damn

    Bookmark and Share

    Tomorrow won't come

    Posted: by Stained in Labels:


    It felt like tomorrow won't come
    Do I wish it doesn't
    A shooting star streaks across the sky
    Vanishes into the darkness
    Make my wish come true

    Flittering away
    A butterfly
    Colourless.........& now lifeless
    Lying on the ground
    Mouldering before my eyes

    Just ask a question
    To get the answer
    Get what you want
    Try to at least
    And It'll make you cry

    Tears shed today
    Forgotten tomorrow
    But it feels like tomorrow won't come
    I wish it doesn't
    A shooting star Vanishes in Darkness


    Bookmark and Share

    Best flash animation in 2006!!!!

    Posted: by Stained in

    I kinda like this video so thought I'd link it here....

    Bookmark and Share
    Posted: Sunday, March 04, 2007 by Stained in

    Was just going through my old posts & one particular post caught my eye. Its dated at October 15 , 2006 & is titled 'In the end'. The following lines really say it all so just thought I'd post it....sorry its a re post but what the heck I want it so I put it.....

    "The jokes of life surround you everyday. Death hides behind a door you will soon discover. Every morning you wake up hoping that this day would be the day that your wishes were fulfilled. The day that your life would mean something to someone, your death would make someone cry. But hope is just a lie you live everyday, days that you begin with a smile & end with a tear.
    But its human nature to go on hoping & so will I. But I know I will never get what I want, cause my life's a joke that just keeps getting funnier.... "

    Bookmark and Share
    Posted: Thursday, March 01, 2007 by Stained in

    Time & again the people of this world prove to me that each & every person can be manipulated to ones own convenience & every action of theirs can be predicted to precision.
    Just trigger it & all the pieces will fall into place as per your need. Quite simple to do & very satisfactory to watch the whole process happen.
    It also proves that you really don't need to do much to have your way. Just be a little selfish & evil in life & everything should be fine for you...
    Hmm....its quite surprising that people can soo easily be made to do what you exactly want them to do.

    Bookmark and Share