Looking for the Warmest piece of Ice..

Posted: Saturday, October 14, 2006 by Stained in
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Raging Temper,
Scary thoughts...
Nobody Loves me,
Everybody Hates me...

This is what had happened to me yesterday & were the thoughts running through my mind. Just blew my head with anger. Was sooo mad that felt like I would breathe fire. Its quite annoying to be treated like a kid, but usually I'm able to ignore this & blissfully live on. But yesterday was just different. I was frustrated without really having a significant reason to be in such a mood. Just one of those 'Dont Mess with me' days that anything said by anyone just seemed wrong to me. As usual in the end the 'Guilt' stepped in & I felt so dumb as I had clearly over reacted. So I was the one at the recieving end of ice cold behaviour from many members of my family & friends. Weird it is, everytime I lose my temper, it is always followed by the 'Guilt' factor & then the ice cold behaviour. Luckily my actions were forgiven quite easily the very next day. But I wonder what this temper will do to me one day when I do go overboard & then there is no coming back......

Btw love the song ''square one'' by coldplay, recommended to all, this is how the lyrics go

You're in control, is there anywhere you wanna go?
You're in control, is there anything you wanna know?
The future's for discovering
The space in which we're travelling
From the top of the first page
To the end of the last day
From the start in your own way
You just want somebody listening to what you say
It doesn't matter who you are
It doesn't matter who you are

Under the surface trying to break through
Deciphering the codes in you
I need a compass, draw me a map
I'm on the top, I can't get back

Whoa whoa

The first line on the first page
To the end of the last page
From the start in your own way
You just want somebody listening to what you say
It doesn't matter who you are
It doesn't matter who you are

You just want
Somebody listening to what you say
Oh, you just want somebody listening to what you say
It doesn't matter who you are
It doesn't matter who you are

Is there anybody out there who
Is lost and hurt and lonely too
Are they bleeding all your colours into one?
and if you come undone
As if you've been run through
Some catapult it fired you
You wonder if your chance will ever come
Or if you're stuck in square one
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Everybody needs somebody to be there irrespective of who they are, I wonder when my chance will come to be that somebody...

3 comments:

  1. D says:

    Yegads... #2 wherever I go... on the forum you say she loves this song and you're trying to figure out why, and then on your blog, now you realize that you love the song... Sheesh...
    Abt the other stuff... hmmm... you do it all the time... sooo... wotever...

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  1. Anonymous says:

    Lol at the previous comment. Why the ice cold behaviour? I WONDER WHY.... 6yrs later and you still haven't Changed much..... hope you do one day, before itstoo late.

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