Little Box

Posted: Thursday, August 15, 2013 by Stained in Labels:
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Little box with the letter on top
A window to embrace memories
To replace what was once shattered
Hidden in lies and deceit

Within the hands clasped shut
Oh this is just perfect
Maybe the memories are still alive
The little box got dumped instead

Years later the box endured
Hidden in a corner feeling ashamed
A bigger window now held inside
Everything was sunshine once again

Deceit and lies still lie below
The secret that no one shall know
Now your smile will never be alone
That little window always knew

- Stained

*sigh* Haven't written for a while so thought I was out of that phase. Guess not... (-_-)


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Small bump

Posted: Wednesday, May 15, 2013 by Stained in Labels: ,
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You are my one, and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
You are my one, and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.

'Cause you were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life.
'Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why



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Impossible

Posted: Saturday, April 27, 2013 by Stained in Labels: ,
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Discovered this a while back....



And on a completely unrelated note...after going steady for three years...one has taken the plunge and gotten married to SJ. Things still haven't sunk in but getting there....as of now everything is awesome. ^_^

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I deserve it...

Posted: Monday, January 07, 2013 by Stained in Labels:
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Even though this postsecret was published regarding bullying....it kinda hits the bulls-eye in here. This thought keeps me from being truly happy even though right now everything is alright but I keep holding back....

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When You're Young

Posted: Friday, December 14, 2012 by Stained in Labels: ,
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 Why can't they remember
l'll never forget?
How these dreams can come undone
When you're young

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Fisker Karma ES

Posted: Wednesday, November 21, 2012 by Stained in Labels: , , , , , , , ,
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After a very long time I'm spending over 10 minutes editing a picture & enjoying it.

Also this is the first time I've used a picture of mine as a wallpaper on my phone which might seem like a minuscule thing but for me it's huge because it means I won't get bored/critical of it any time soon meaning I'm quite satisfied with the end result. (^_^)


Camera Model : Canon EOS 5D Mark II
Shooting Date/Time : 20/12/2012 12:00:32 PM
Tv(Shutter Speed) : 1/30
Av(Aperture Value) : f4.0
Metering Mode : Centre-weighted average
ISO Speed : 640
Lens : EF 24-105mm f4 IS L
Focal Length : 24mm

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Still here...

Posted: Monday, October 22, 2012 by Stained in Labels:
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Haven't been here for a while so here's a post just to say I'm still alive and here's a few lines from the top of my head...

The stench of hope breathes desire in my heart. It flutters into the sense of immortality. Die it must before it obliterates me.

Oh and on a side note...this blog is six years old this month. (^_^) 

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Cut short...

Posted: Tuesday, September 04, 2012 by Stained in Labels:
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03/09/2012
03:00am

It wiithered in pain lying on the floor...
A splash of red nearby.
Blood spewing from its destroyed mouth...
Gasping for the life that was cut short.

A motor comes to a halt somewhere...
Scampering feet holding back the desperation.
A hand reaches out pulling it to safety...
It was dead somewhere inbetween.

-Stained

For the ones who don't get it. I'm talking about a street cat that had been hit by a car. It was lying on the floor whitering like a fish out of the water. I stopped my car blocking off the road making sure no other car ran over it. Unlike the other times... I picked up the cat with my bare hand as blood dripped from its mouth. It took its last breath as I walked over to the pavement where I laid it down. As I walked back to the car I glanced at the blood splattered across the road; the car that hit the cat must have been speeding. It's an internal road with speed humps since it's right next to a school. *sigh*

Can't sleep...

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Anything in return...

Posted: Thursday, August 16, 2012 by Stained in Labels:
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A tweet from @cshanif says it all.....

I still care, I am just done with showing it. I'll continue to care without expecting anything in return.

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35days...

Posted: Thursday, August 02, 2012 by Stained in Labels:
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...since the last time I made any money. This doesn't go well with the money I just blew over my freelance license. The odd car (free) shoots are keeping me sane and the fact that I've finished most of my pending work (personal & professional) feels good. Also the (portfolio)website is coming along well so that's another positive. I just can't take another month like this though. *sigh*

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GT-86

Posted: Saturday, July 28, 2012 by Stained in Labels: , , , , , , , ,
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I'm back to doing what I love i.e. shooting cars. I still haven't taken it to the next level in the terms of time spent shooting each picture and post processing thanks to the heat (the temp gauge said 49'C) but it's a start in the right direction. (^_^)

Camera Model : Canon EOS 7D
Shooting Date/Time : 26/07/2012 11:58:57 AM
Tv(Shutter Speed) : 1/8000
Av(Aperture Value) : f2.0
Metering Mode : Pattern
ISO Speed : 100
Lens : EF 135mm f2.0 L
Focal Length : 135mm

He begs for forgiveness...she glances at the new toy as she shoots him in the head

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Mclaren MP4-12C

Posted: Monday, July 16, 2012 by Stained in Labels: , , , , , ,
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After a very long time I'm happy with my pictures from a shoot. This turned out to be my favourite from all of them. :)

Camera Model : Canon EOS 7D
Shooting Date/Time : 15/07/2012 08:36:56 PM
Tv(Shutter Speed) : 1/20
Av(Aperture Value) : f1.8
Metering Mode : Pattern
ISO Speed : 200
Lens : EF 85mm f1.8
Focal Length : 85mm

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Freelance Photographer

Posted: Wednesday, July 11, 2012 by Stained in Labels: , , ,
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Haven't blogged here for a very long time. I wouldn't say I've been kept busy; just distracted I guess. So my application for a freelance photographer license has almost been approved for a whopping AED19,500. By almost I mean, they've taken all the paper work, money, signatures etc, and just need to process and stamp it. Once that is done, another AED4,000 will be spent on Visa and the health checks required along with the cost of the Emirates ID. After all of that there won't be any looking back until next year where I'll need to pay AED17,500 for the renewal. Lots of money but Insha'Allah I'll make enough to justify it all. Kinda broke but dreams tend to not be cheap to fulfil. So that's that...

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Decision....

Posted: Monday, April 23, 2012 by Stained in Labels: ,
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You know that awesome feeling when the biggest decisions you've made in your life time turn out to be the best thing you've ever done? Well....I don't feel that way....yet!!

Currently I'm spending most of my time pulling my hair in frustration, stress and worry. Time is moving so slowly that the past 2 weeks seems like 2 years. I'm having dreamless nights which are good but also mean my head is so tired of over working while I'm awake that it has no strength to create imaginary things while I sleep. The results are so close but so far away that right now all I can do is watch the clock go ‘tick-tick’. The agony….argh!!!

On a bright side…I can’t wait to feel that awesome feeling when everyone falls into place because Insha'Allah it will. (^_^)

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Call me...

Posted: Wednesday, April 11, 2012 by Stained in Labels: ,
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Tilt & Shifting

Posted: Thursday, March 15, 2012 by Stained in Labels: , , , , , ,
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There are two kinds of breakdowns in my opinion. One where you scream out loud in desperation and fall into a pool of tears while the second is when you have an internal meltdown with a smile plastered on your face. The second one is the one that freaks me out. As the penguins would say... 'Just smile and wave boys, smile and wave...'

Anyway on topic. SJ bought a Canon EF 24mm 3.5 TS-E lens a month or so back and I've got one thing to say about it...LOVE IT!!! I haven’t been shooting much for myself which is evident from the missing photo posts on this blog and my photo specific tumblr blog so it was refreshing to see myself up and running thanks to the lens immense learning curve.

I’ve learned photography through constant trial and error so this lens is perfect for the photo geek in me. It constantly allows and expects me to tinker with what I shoot and how I compose it while throwing a curveball in the form of its ability to Tilt and Shift which in layman’s terms means AWESOMENESS. I haven’t had this amount of fun for a very long time which is quite surprising. I did buy myself a Canon EF 135mm f2 at the same time with SJ which happened to be on my wish list but I didn’t enjoy it as much.

Anyway two images I shot in the last two days which I adore to bits. Not the best display of the prowess of this lens but I don’t care as I like them… (^_^)

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Somebody care...

Posted: Monday, March 05, 2012 by Stained in Labels: ,
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19.04.2006
20:34

I'm living a life
One that's not mine
I'm dreaming a dream
One in which I do not wish to be
I want to get out
I want to leave
But how much can I scream?
How much can I shout?
I need you to be there
I need you to care
But you just stand apart
And all you do is stare
Please, somebody save me...
Please...somebody care...

-D

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Destroyed faces....

Posted: Thursday, February 02, 2012 by Stained in Labels:
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I think enough time has passed for me to blog about this.

Two weeks back on my way to cricket at 6am, I spotted a dead cat on the road. I didn’t realise its face was smashed on one side till I picked it up. That’s one sight you don’t want to see up close. I placed it in the sand nearby and walked away as fast as I could. Alas that didn’t really help as the image of the destroyed face is embedded in my head and will linger there for a while. I drive past the spot every day....

I haven’t bought a shovel yet because I realised I’d end up in trouble if I were to be seen digging a hole in the ground. This is not going to end well. I almost stopped on Sheikh Zayed road a few days back when I spotted a kitten lying dead near the centre divider. I was at 120kph.... (-_-)

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Colours...

Posted: Tuesday, January 31, 2012 by Stained in
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As a kid, I'd always been into dark colours when it came to clothing with black and dark blue being my favourite. This lasted till my first year in college which is when I met my CC and everything changed. I love colours now and I can honestly carry off anything...even fluorescent yellow or shocking pink. I'm not afraid of stepping out of the house wearing the oddest of mishmash. Even the shoes I own are of different colours now (I recently bought bright red shoes with white-blue polka dot laces). I don't particularly have a favourite colour anymore but I do tend to buy more yellow/orange clothes. Here’s a image of some of the shirts I own... (^_^)

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Taking care of the dead

Posted: Tuesday, December 27, 2011 by Stained in Labels:
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I was in school, possibly in 11th. Talks of getting a pet cat were buzzing at home. We’ve all been wanting one since the time my older brother was a kid. He’s in his early 30s now.

On the day of 6th May, I got onto the school bus from home but then got off a few stops later as a friend had pointed towards a white kitten on the roadside. I grabbed it in the most awkward position, got bitten and dropped it while I was running back home. It was dead when I reached. I put it in a plastic bag and dumped it in the garbage. I think I scared it to death...

A few years later on a late-night drive back home from the movie theatre, my brother drove over a cat. He was speeding on a narrow street and was unable to react quickly enough when the cat jumped in front of the car. He dropped me home and I ran back to where the cat lay wounded, gasping for its last few breaths. I picked it up and laid it on the sand next to a construction site. It died a few minutes later.

Since then I’ve been driving a lot myself. I see dead cats every single day, squashed like a pancake or with guts spilled out. Once in a while you see a fresh kill that has yet to be run over by more cars. I was often tempted to stop and rescue the dead cat from being run over again, but I let it pass.

A week or so back, on my way home I spotted another fresh kill on the road. I parked nearby, grabbed a bag and ran to it. In the rush of getting it off the road, I used my bare hands to lift it and laid it on the pavement. There were no signs or marks on the cat that indicated it had been hit. It could have literally been sleeping. The only way to tell that it had died was the pool of blood that was near its mouth, on the road. I laid it next to the garbage box not knowing what else to do.

A few days back, while driving down the road behind Sheikh Zayed Road, I spotted another dead cat whose corpse was yet to be run over. I parked nearby, watched around 20 cars drive by hoping no one would run over it, ran to it in the first possible gap I could find in the traffic flow and got the cat’s corpse off the road. A cabbie honked at me as he came to an abrupt halt but didn’t create a scene as he saw what I was doing. Like the previous one, this one had no marks on it either, apart from blood near its mouth. I laid this one too, on a sandy plot nearby.

I don’t know how long I’ll continue to do this because it haunts me; messes up my head. I think I need to buy a shovel…

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