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Today morning they managed to remove about 1.5 liters of liquid from moms lungs which according to the doctor is a lot. They weren't able to remove it all so they'll be trying to fix that through medications. They still need to figure out what went wrong which basically means she's still in MICU.
Moms been admitted in MICU (medical intensive care unit) due to a lung infection (possibly pulmonary edema). They are still trying to ascertain what the cause of this infection is and how to go ahead treating it. I can't visit her today as my work clashes with the evening visiting hours of the hospital i.e 7pm to 9pm. :|
She was standing next to him with her hand held by his. He looked at her with a smile and her eyes sparkled with happiness. Slowly he held her other hand as he moved in front of her, pulled her close to him and gave her a kiss on the forehead. When he moved back, she was gone; his hands were empty and the feeling of dread plunged somewhere inside. Tonight like every other night, she was just a figment of his imagination but for those few seconds, it felt real and he felt complete.
On a different note...Mom got admitted to a private hospital about an hour back due to a possible chest infection/internal inflammation. No details yet as I'm stuck at home doing work.
She'd never let a man close to her, she'd never love again. He believed every word that was said, it all felt so true. And so a devious plan was conceived to make everything alright. It had to end this way, there was no going back. He knew he was strong, he could handle the pain. So he lied away to glory to shatter her heart; ten days later she was someone else’s sweetheart. And then he faltered because everything was lost so quickly. There was no one around, nothing to hold on. He was weak and hollow, shattering all around. But there was no going back, it was all over. Now he sits in a corner hugging his knees. All his life he tried to help people but now that he looks back, all he sees is pain. Was it all worth it he will never know? Maybe love is just a lie he wish he’d never believed....
03.06.2010
03:25pm
Shadows
Reflecting off the mirror
A motionless quiver
Undaunted creator
Pearls of happiness
Rolling down her cheeks
Those are the lies
You’ll never ever see
The lines have been drawn
Criss-crossing around me
A breach of order
Broken false promises
Desire of perfection
Continues unlimited
Too far too close
Don’t close your eyes
I hide under my blanket
From the evil within
These are my lies
You’ll never ever see again
-Stained
Shots of the board game 'Risk' that I took today as I try to experiment more with strobe lights, soft boxes, grids and snoots. Till now I like the challenge though I need to start pushing the envelop with some more creative lighting ideas.
2010 Ford Mustang Convertible. It might look like the real thing but it's not. Had gotten a 1:18 scale diecast model free at the 2010 Ford mustang launch and so thought it might be a good idea to shoot it to make it look like the real thing especially since I had borrowed SJ's strobe lights.
Camera Model : Canon EOS 7D
“I want to be there for you for as long as I can”, an SMS I sent SJ today. The kind of person I am, there is no limit to how much I can care for a person, and this is how I work. I do extremely crazy things for people, without them even knowing. I have fought their battles, their inner doubts and taken care of them in any possible circumstances. There is a sense of contentment defending or caring for someone even if it meant fighting the entire world. Been there done that. Unfortunately every single time, I end up looking like the villain because I always tend to leave a path of destruction behind me that everyone seems to judge me by irrespective of my intentions, good or bad.
But as SJ told me, I need to learn from my mistakes, need to fix myself and just be me. So I shall continue to care because I can and I will. This is who I am and this is my life. As my parents always tell me “naiki kar dariya mein dal”
All my life I've tried to help people...but now that I look back, all I see is pain...
