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I've always wanted a car. Now I've got one and I was very happy about it though ignoring the part where people keep scratching it with keys or I keep hitting the pavement and scratching the wheels. I wanted to become a photographer but had no work. Lately been so busy that I haven't been able to spend enough time at home again ignoring the part that I still don't get paid enough but it still made me happy. I've even managed to socialize lately which is a huge achievement for me. All of this feels great or atleast I thought it would. Currently the people I care about are not talking to me. I've become the person I've never wanted to be. I was heading that way for a very long time and had seen the warning signs but being the jerk I am, I ignored it all. Today no one knows how I feel, cause no one cares. I have nothing....even though I thought I had everything....hopefully I'll manage to survive this phase of my life without killing myself(ignoring the part that I'm a complete pipsqueak and won't have the guts)....and I'm not going to say sorry to anyone cause I know I deserve this....
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you seriously think no one cares?
or ppl do care but are mad at you right now and make it seem like that?
YOU GOT A CAR!! WOOHOO!! WHICH ONE DUDE?!?!
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Thanks Neil...but doubt anything good is heading my way any time soon...
@harsha...I've just messed up big time yet again and so soon there will be no one left to car...
And it's not my car...it's mine and my sisters car. It's a Ford mondeo...
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Congratulations! :o)
about your mess up.. you know you can buzz me anytime you wanna talk..
drop me an email if you like.
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I'd prefer not...plus anyway you're going to say the same things that I already know...and that won't make me feel any better...
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no issues :o)
and OYE! You think you got me all figured out eh.. I think not! Dont be so judgmental! :oP
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It's not about being judgemental...it's more about what I did which will get only a single reaction from everyone....
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sigh... I have no idea about what you 'did', so cant say much then.
keep your chin up mate, I'm sure there will be good things for you ahead. Neil.