Changing Lanes

I think I suffer from ADHD (Attention deficit and hyperactivity disorder).
A common developmental and behavioral disorder. It is characterized by poor concentration, distractibility, hyperactivity, and impulsiveness that are inappropriate for the child's age. Children and adults with ADHD are easily distracted by sights and sounds in their environment, cannot concentrate for long periods of time, are restless and impulsive, or have a tendency to daydream and be slow to complete tasks.

So is this bad or what is the question.....

18:05
25/04.07

Held between two broken threads
Tattered apart....
The Argus-eyed sentinel
Built around
The great wall
To collapse tomorrow
A Pride sucker
Under the feet
Like dirt and grit
Pressed to the ground
To the all mighty circle
Left to wander
Pointlessly straight
A weepy drift
Smashes into the wall
Face first
To feed the soil
Tears & Blood
Ingenuity
Obscenity...

The anxiety
Before a drama
Time to act
An acceptable lie
Smiling faces
The glass is half empty
Incomplete? no
Broken? not at all
Traumatised? nope
Abandoned?....
Ghosts of tomorrow
Wisp of hope
A wordless comic
Pin drop silence
The spotlight is on
A man with the red nose
Life is a joke
That keeps getting funnier
As somewhere in between
Words that no one can read..

-Stained

12:28
15/04/07

Human carcasses lay all around him
A silent voice still lingers
The Last scream grows silent
The murmur in his ear stops
What he may have accomplished
Will no longer matter
As he glances at his face
A reflexion in a puddle of blood
Expression without words

Human lives ceased around him
Happiness for he survived
He looks for his severed hand
It lies next to what was him
A crushed body lying limp
What he was doesn't matter
Cause what he is means nothing
A soul apart from everything he once was
Lost forever without saying goodbye

-Stained

Click here for Lyrics

Yet another song I'm beginning to like.....Thanx fud for making me listen to Third Eye Blind... :)

I have been given time off my love life by my petite amie. One whole year [or thirteen months to be exact] away from all the happiness, hassles, tensions & troubles that are part of it.
This has given me an opportunity to give more attention to other issues in life which have been suffering due to the immense importance given to that one person by me. Time to recuperate my relationship with my family which is a wreck at the moment & with my friends who disagree with a few of my decisions which were irrational but were taken due to my weakness. I also need to rejuvenate my studies from the grave & be myself i.e. the free-runner[parkour].
Now lets see hows this new scene in life uncovers, hoping it follows the script written by me....so that....

Got this in a forward mail. I know a lot of you have already seen this but I felt like posting this here.



My letter to God over the years has contained the same thing.

"Dear God,
You know that I have five special people in my life & I have five dreams for them. Please help me fulfill those dreams. And about me, well I'll manage.
-Stained"

I've always wanted the same thing since I was 8 I think. I got an idea from my older sister who had a dream. So I decided to think about one thing these five special people would really want in their lives & then I put them as dreams I would try to fulfill for them. Now these five dreams have evolved over time as the content has changed to make more sense. I still do hang on to these dreams now also but today I'm really not sure how to fulfill them......

Two year old baby boy Breakdancer....

Loving this song.........

I've been getting annoyed quite easily lately. For the past several days I've always ended up being in a bad mood. The best part is that I still haven't vented my anger/frustration etc on anyone during those bad moods, just don't have the strenght. I seriously need to do something really soon cause I've got my mock exams in a couple of weeks & I havent even started studying. Its just too much of an effort to study & I'm not really bothered. All those dreams of getting a merit have gone down the drain & I don't really care if I pass or not. I've never failed in an exam [i.e of importance] in my life but by the way I'm going that 'never failed' thing won't stand. Don't know what to do, too much of emotions screwing up life right now that I can't think straight. Plus I've been bunking classes left right & centre. Wonder what my parents will say when they see my attendence percentage in the report after the exams. I'm already in so much trouble at home & with all this added, it's like digging my own grave. Life sucks but again my friends will say that I should deal with it & grow up, but I wonder what they will say if they were in my position. Last thing I remember they were not able to clear there own lifes. I know one day I'm going to burst again like last week but it won't matter...not anymore

Drifting to another topic. I've been listening to the new 'Maroon 5' song 'Makes me Wonder'. I kinda love Maroon 5 music & this song is just another master piece coming from them. Its been playing on repeat on my MP3 player for about 2 hours already & I'm still not bored of it. It has their usual music touch with wonderful lyrics. Lyrics that I somehow connect to [like many other songs but well it sounds nice to my ears right now atleast].
I highly recommend it & I think I'd personally buy the album when its out.

Maybe I should change this blog name to 'Rantings of Stained' or something.