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21:54
27/03/07
Feeding off other people's wrath for me
Passing through the devils shadow
It runs in my veins
Oozes out through every word
Words of advice
Mastered the art of despise
Filling my world full of lies
Such mediocrity
Has been meant for me
An hideous person
A hidden facet
Should have known it long ago
I'm the evil one
So why do I live...
-Stained
Liking this poem a lot... :D
Anyway today's my parents 30th wedding anniversary & I haven't yet wished them..... :)
My life fucking sucks right now & the worst is still not here.....Brilliant!!!!!
And then people EXPECT me to Compromise. Compromise what??? I really have nothing here and I'm expected to let go what nothing I have....Fuck!!!!!
Yes I'm in a very bad mood, just hoping the movie '300' is up to my expectations. But again hope is a LIE....
Signs and symptoms of Depression:
Well the above summarises what my life was during the first few months of my first year in college, i.e. Oct-Nov 2004. Reminiscence about what one did wrong is always good cause it either helps you not to do those mistakes again or it just breaks you from inside. Umm...Sorry again to everyone [if they ever read this] who I gave a hard time during those few months, my bad...it always is.....
A skill I'm not very proud of is my ability to make things up when needed to cover up a truth. I can spin a story out of no where that is completely believable. Done it so many times for my friends & sometimes I surprise myself with the stories I make with a perfect series of fake incidents that coincide with the requirements of a perfect cover-up, a fool-proof story.
But it does not mean that I'm a very convincing liar when this 'made up' story comes out of my mouth. Its more effective when I'm the writer while someone else does the act of saying it.
21:57
14/03/07
A Million dollar question
A million answers
A million wishes
That have you at the edge
You wonder what to say
Tomorrow's dream
Could be a reality today
But dreams are a mirage
Reality kicks you in the face
You contemplate
You take your time
You wish you had someone along
That misery takes your breath away
You want this to end
Forever to fulfill
Would it be possible
But dreams are a mirage
Reality kicks you in the face
The darkness begins to hurt
The night comes to an end
The stars disappear
That's me on the ground
You can see me now
A spot on this earth
With a million wishes
And dreams are a mirage
Reality kicks you in the face
-Stained
I'm starting to like this song......Its called 'Blurry' by Puddle Of Mudd
Click here for Lyrics...
Desert Rock was Awesome........Prodigy was the best in my opinion. Me & FUD sang along, danced, jumped & had a lot of fun together. It was great.....though the mosh pit was kinda scary cause every time one started had to make sure FUD was out of the way & unhurt [Sorry FUD again if me being a bodyguard bugged you]. We got elbowed, hit on the head, pushed around but all was great even though now I feel like lying in bed & not moving a muscle. The energy of the performers & the crowd was exhilarating but the beer throwing by some jerks was not fun. Got splashed several times with beer but luckily it was costly so water was splashed more than beer [Got back home at 1am, put my clothes for wash & had a bath, ended up sleeping at 2:30am]. I'm not going for the second day today so I'll post some pictures of yesterday later & even a few videos.
23:04
07/03/07
May he know why it was him
To Justify for the unknown
His to make
His to lose
A chronicle untold
Far from time
A gamble of fate
Or Maybe his own life
What life you may see
Cruel & free
Dying it may seem
Just another journey
From past to present
Future is now
May his soul
Rest in pieces
Scattered all over
Of what was once his
All over the ground
Under the sole
Sole of people
Who don't give a damn
His to make
His to lose
Lost it all
What he never had
Now he lays
Alone in his grave
Forever he shall lay
Till the end of time
When all will be lost
And nothing will matter anymore
Then his time will come
To shine again
To shine into the nothingness
And no one would give a damn
14:05
07.03.07
It felt like tomorrow won't come
Do I wish it doesn't
A shooting star streaks across the sky
Vanishes into the darkness
Make my wish come true
Flittering away
A butterfly
Colourless.........& now lifeless
Lying on the ground
Mouldering before my eyes
Just ask a question
To get the answer
Get what you want
Try to at least
And It'll make you cry
Tears shed today
Forgotten tomorrow
But it feels like tomorrow won't come
I wish it doesn't
A shooting star Vanishes in Darkness
-Stained
I kinda like this video so thought I'd link it here....
Was just going through my old posts & one particular post caught my eye. Its dated at October 15 , 2006 & is titled 'In the end'. The following lines really say it all so just thought I'd post it....sorry its a re post but what the heck I want it so I put it.....
"The jokes of life surround you everyday. Death hides behind a door you will soon discover. Every morning you wake up hoping that this day would be the day that your wishes were fulfilled. The day that your life would mean something to someone, your death would make someone cry. But hope is just a lie you live everyday, days that you begin with a smile & end with a tear.
But its human nature to go on hoping & so will I. But I know I will never get what I want, cause my life's a joke that just keeps getting funnier.... "
Time & again the people of this world prove to me that each & every person can be manipulated to ones own convenience & every action of theirs can be predicted to precision.
Just trigger it & all the pieces will fall into place as per your need. Quite simple to do & very satisfactory to watch the whole process happen.
It also proves that you really don't need to do much to have your way. Just be a little selfish & evil in life & everything should be fine for you...
Hmm....its quite surprising that people can soo easily be made to do what you exactly want them to do.
