Changing Lanes

In a whacked out mood. Have had four heated conversations in the past 24 hours, not fun I say.

The first[last night], Mo has a nik that might upset sam[she is like a sister to me], so I ask him to act in a appropriate manner & to change it. He gets offended & said it was for something else[I don't believe him]& that I should keep my bad stuffs with me & he does not want to start any bullshit again....hmm....:S

The Second[last night], SS calls me up. He asks me why I'm spreading rumors about something he has never done. I'm like wtf?. He said I was going around telling people a lie about him. Here I was wondering when did I start telling people stuff when the thing he was talking about, only two other persons knew to my knowledge unless someone had overheard me[which was a very high possibility]. So I told him maybe someone over heard me & it was not my fault, not my responsibility. But he kept swearing & my temper kept rising. But then I today after a loooong sleep I send him a SMS saying sorry... :S

The Third[last night], Mom got mad at me for late night phone calls to my friends. She lectured me a lot that screwed my mood further. I know it was my mistake but well I had lost my temper twice already so it was on the edge, lost it again.

The fourth[Today morning], D.O or 'The bitch' as I like to call her. She's got a new dog[boy friend] who seems to have a few contacts. He was able to provide a discount on tickets for my friends b'day treat. So being jerks that a few of my friends are, they invited them. I didn't know about it till today & the treats tomorrow. My temper rose again, Why do they have to call 'The bitch'& her Dog, sheesh...I'm thinking of not going now...But then I decided to go & just messaged her on MSN telling her to stay out of my way, she replied after a looong time[maybe she needed the time to think] saying that she is not interested in my way, that I should keep my advice to myself...But as I had been advised before, I ignored the trash she was saying.

Hmm...Somebody's gonna get steam rolled by me...Just hope its 'The bitch' or somebody I don't like...But then people who care want me to control. Its so much easier to be angry then to control. Why should I control when I can remove it all on people who deserved to be trashed. Ruining people's lives is sooo much more satisfying then bottling it up & screwing your own life. What to do is the big question....