I strike again
Posted: Saturday, January 13, 2007 by Stained inAs usual, I screwed up yesterday. Why do I do this I'll never understand. First I don't do anything to make the situation any better for anyone & here I am making it worse for the people who matter. Just brilliant, a complete genius of a person.
I wish I could just stop screwing up. But noooo...Its destiny. I'm meant to screw up again & again in life till I'm dead. Why don't I just read between the lines & learn that maybe nothing is meant for me & I'm meant for no one. I was happy living my life alone with that enormous amount of hate boiling inside of me making the focus of my life as just taking revenge. Nothing more, Nothing less. But here I was trying to understand the world by socializing. Bad idea, forget understand the world, I can't understand myself anymore.
No more...Enough of this lie I'm living. I need to create my own destiny, my future, i.e. I will go down one day but I'll take with me all those people who made the life of my family difficult. 'Revenge is sweet' I seem to have forgotten it lately but now I remember & I do hope I will never forget it again.
You didn't do anything intentionally with the aim of screwing anything up, so stop blaming yourself so much. You aren't some disaster zone so quit thinking along the lines that you are.
Why don't I just read between the lines & learn that maybe nothing is meant for me & I'm meant for no one
This is bullshit and you know it...and I can't wait for the day to literally kick you for saying this.
Take care.